Thursday 1 July 2021

Thursday

 Good morning and welcome to a new month.  Pinch and punch and white rabbits to you!  :-)  The new month has started off with some beautiful sunshine and, after what felt like an extremely chilly evening yesterday, it is warmer and the French window is open to let in the sunny air.

Yesterday was a pottering sort of day.  I did an early morning shop and both M&S and Aldi were pretty empty.  No checkout queueing at all.  As one would expect, my supplies had run down rather so it came to more than usual but that's OK.  I'm proper stocked with more healthy and fresh food again now.

Come the evening, I felt so cold that I got my owl fleece blanket and turned on the heating and, unsurprisingly, fell asleep.  As a result, I didn't get to sleep in bed very quickly but didn't wake until six thirty this morning which is virtually a lie in!

Today is another day spent at home unless I find the energy to hack down some jungle down the allotment!  I want to get everything ready for tomorrow - food, suitcase, tidy house for the cleaners, etc, so I don't have to panic around.  I'm still feeling sort of weary and empty and I guess that will stay around for a while but it's fine, natural, it will sort out in time.

The main thing for today is that I am expecting an email from the funeral directors, hopefully giving me a time when I can go in and discuss 'arrangements'.  It will be good to get things started in that direction.

So, I've had my bath and am wrapped in my towel.  I had better go and get dressed and start the day's pottering!
Hope you have a good potter yourself.  xx

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  1. You seem to be coping well and as you say you feel rather empty which is only to be expected .Your Dad was a huge part of your life . Keep doing what your doing and make sure you take care of yourself .

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    1. Thanks, Jane. I am sure I will have moments but that will be OK.
      xx

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  2. Please take care of your self it's very early days and pleased your doing some normal things.
    Hazel 🌈🌈

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    1. It feels right to do those simple, ordinary things. Thanks, Hazel.
      xx

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  3. Just sending love to get you through each day. Hope you are able to get started on arrangements with funeral directors soon x

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    1. Thanks. I have an appointment for tomorrow afternoon.
      xx

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  4. Adding some normality back into your life is healing in itself so it's good to see that you feel able to do that. Planning the funeral is one of the first milestones in the bereavement journey so my thoughts are with you as you take those steps.

    Thinking of you and your family xx

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    1. Thanks, Eileen. I'm not looking forward to it all but has to be done.
      xx

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  5. Just dropping by to let you know I'm thinking of you. x

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  6. Continuing to think of you and your family, Joy. Have a gentle and good day!

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  7. Hope your pottering day is a good one. Taking things relatively easy right now is something good you can do for yourself.

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    1. I didn't get an awful lot done but it was a nice day, all the same. Thanks.
      xx

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  8. You are coping very well. It really is hard when your last parent dies. My sister and I had a really hard time planning our Dad's funeral especially as he only wanted immediate family in attendance and we instead let his brothers and sisters know so they could attend if they desired.

    God bless.

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    1. Dad was an only child. Mum had two sisters but one is dead. I'm hoping the other can come but it is by no means certain.
      I'm sure that things will overwhelm me at some point but, until then, it's carry on and stay calm!
      xx

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  9. Go with your heart on funeral arrangements.
    Though your dad had definite ideas he'd want you to be as comfortable as possible with the service etc.
    You seem to be pacing yourself well. Make sure you have some space for yourself in the garden, allotment or your dad's garden every day if at all possible.
    It will allow you to refocus on what is important and what can be left for now.
    A painful time and a time to be gentle with yourself.
    Sue

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    1. You are right, a harden is a very healing place. xx

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